[ makima doesn’t have to know the gritty details of the girl’s guilt to get into her head; kanade fills in the blanks for her, a job well done, and quite the punishment for being so selfish and broken.
makima too, was being selfish and cruel, but her nature, her demonic lean into suffering— she just can’t help it. kanade doesn’t know what’s best for her, either. this will help just right in embedding it into her memory. she’ll never forget this feeling.
she’ll never forget her. ]
It’s alright. I forgive you, Kanade. Not only are you trying to save so many people, you’re trying to save yourself. It’s the only way to make it stop hurting so much, isn’t it?
[Ha... she's not sure if that ache will ever truly go away. Even if her father recovered, in both body and mind, even if he says he forgave her... that memory will always be there. She'll never be able to forget seeing him collapsed on the floor of his room. And because of that, her guilt will never really subside.]
i don't know but it's the only thing i can think of
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if if things aren't permanent and we all come back i'll let you know if i was brought back with everyone else
[ in the meantime, makima brings herself to the ruins and overgrowth of what used to be the park. perhaps the most untouched compared to the rest of bavan, with its buildings and architecture. it's a little ugly, but it's quiet, and peaceful out here. no one really brings themselves to walk about in the open, but makima does— and she looks like she's been on a completely different plain. her slacks, button-down shirt and long black trench coat are flawless.
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cw: abusive dynamics, gaslighting, instigating suicide (up there, too 😔)
makima too, was being selfish and cruel, but her nature, her demonic lean into suffering— she just can’t help it. kanade doesn’t know what’s best for her, either. this will help just right in embedding it into her memory. she’ll never forget this feeling.
she’ll never forget her. ]
It’s alright. I forgive you, Kanade.
Not only are you trying to save so many people, you’re trying to save yourself. It’s the only way to make it stop hurting so much, isn’t it?
But as much as I dislike it, I understand.
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i don't know
but it's the only thing i can think of
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if
if things aren't permanent
and we all come back
i'll let you know if i was brought back with everyone else
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Before you bid me farewell, I’d like to see you. Will you make yourself available for me, one more time?
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[It's the least she could do, after all.]
is there a safe spot that would be good to meet up at?
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that's one of the gods here, isn't it?
i'm afraid i don't know where it is...
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Are you far from where the apartments used to be?
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um
there's a small park a few blocks away that wasn't damaged too badly
and it's easy enough to hide...
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Meet me there, then.
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i'll look for one
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she's even showered. ]